Big Wheels  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Danny, remember the Big Wheel?  Mickey and I were talking about that on our trip. About you riding your big wheel. How much you loved riding that Big Wheel Bike. You would race up and down the sidewalk, spining your front tire. you rode it until it broke, and I remember you wanted another one for your birthday. I wanted to buy you another one, but your Dad said No you were to big for it. And he was right, you had out grown the big wheel bike. But you liked it so much I just wanted to get it for you any way. If I had it probably would have broken pretty quick because you were to old to be riding it, it was time for you to learn to ride a regular bike. Do you remember learning to ride your regular bike? We did it in one day. I remember Terry Hallem and I spent the entire day chasing you up and down the road one Saturday until you finally learned to ride it. Then me, you, Terry, Tammie and Cassandra all went to the school house. You kids all rode your bikes, and all of us swang on the swings until it got dark. That was a fun day. I love thinking of all the times we had together. Danny I love you. And I hope they have a Big Wheel just your size and you get to ride it every day. Goodnight. Your, Mom Close

What might have been?  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
I was thinking about you today, driving in the car. That seems to be the time, when I spend thinking of you. Things are quite and I don't have other things taking my attention. I was thinking, if you had lived a longer life, what would it be like. And I was wondering, had you known that you only had 28 years here with us, would you have done anything differently. Had I known that you were only going to be here with us for 28 years, I know for a fact, I would have done alot of things different. I never would have moved away. I would have spent every minute possible with you. I probably would have stifled you. It's amazing what you think you would do IF we only knew that someone we loved would be snatched away so quickly. Like one minute your here, and bang, the next minute your not. And I wonder, would you have given up 4 whole years of your meager 28 years, for the Navy?  Close

A gray day.  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Danny,
Today is a gray and gloomy day. Lookes like it might want to rain a little. It would be nice if you, me and Lacie were at home in the Pittsburg house. I think I would make chocolate chip cookies and maybe make potatoe soup. You would most likely be upstairs in the living room watching a game on TV. Lacie up and down the stairs, on the phone, friends in and out. Or maybe I would make chex mix for us. It's almost that time of year. Remember how when you were in the Navy Lacie and I would make a BIG canister of Chex mix and we would send it to you. You always liked it when we did that at the holiday's. Man, I really do miss you. Listening to you laugh out loud while you enjoyed a TV show. Your Dad and I were talking about that after you died. How he would hear you upstairs after everyone was in bed, just laughing at the TV show you were watching. I really liked it on Sunday's when we were all home, and you watched the football games upstairs. You would yell and holler at the players. I hope you get to watch the games still. I hope the Chiefs win this year.
It's the little things I miss most of all. But, I guess we can never go back. I know you and I hadn't lived together the last few months of your life, but I guess I always had in the back of my mind that one day I would move back to that area and I would build or buy a house and you and I would live there  together. I wish that were still a possiblity. I miss you Danny. Love, Your Mom Close

New York  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
When I got my first promotion, I went to New York to live. And as soon as my training was over you came to live with me. It was just me and you. Lacie stayed with Grandma. But, somehow I knew you needed to be with me. So as soon as I possible could, I came and got you. You and I lived in a Lodge. It was really nice, out in the country. And on the weekends you and I would go hiking. Up through the hills and mountains. We would walk and explore. It was a beautiful area. The place we lived was small, only one bedroom, but you had your bed on your side and I had mine on my side. After school was out we went and got Lacie and we found a duplex for the three of us. It too was nice, out in the country. Just us and the lady next to us with her little boy. You watched Lacie while I was at work, and when I was off we went to explore the towns. That's where we had the chocolate ice cream incident. Lacie still rememebers that because when Isabella was born and you me and Lacie went to get Cassandra ice cream. We all talked about the chocolate ice cream incident. We laughed about it because it was silly and we still all three remembered it. That because of that one time you hated ice cream cones now. Something else I remember about that time. How when it was time for us to move to Oklahoma, it was just you and me and little Lacie there to rent the moving truck, load everything, and travel all the ways across the United States pulling our Ford Tarus behind the truck. You were only 13 or 14. But, I know I could not have done those things with out your help. You were just a young boy. Once while we were driving, we got the truck, with the car attached stuck in an area, where you couldn't turn around. You got out of the truck and guided me back alittle this way, up a little that way, back again, over aand over until I slowly inched the truck and car around so we could get out and on the road again. I remember it was pretty scary. I also remember that little Lacie road all the way back in her little rocking chair between our seats. That was quite an adventure. I truly depended on you during that time in my life. I could not have done any of that with out your help, and you were just a boy. But you were there for me, and for Lacie. You are a wonderful Son Danny, and I will never forget even the little things. I love you and I miss you every single day of my life. Goodnight Danny. Sleep Weel. Your, Mom Close

Friend / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )

When you were 3 months old, your first Christmas, Grandma Donna bought you a teddy bear for Christmas. He was a soft, cream colored bear, with dark brown on his ears and feet. In fact in one of the pictures here on the web site, your holding Friend. He was your first friend. You played with Friend all of the time, and I remember playing with you, by making Friend appear to be walking, dancing, and talking to you. You loved when I did that. You would giggle and coo, when you were a baby. The next Christmas you got another stuffed Teddy bear, who we called Brother Bear. But, even though you liked Brother bear, Friend was always your favorite, the one you loved. You slept with Friend, and carried him around, he was just that, your friend. Well, as everyone does, you got older, and you stopped playing with Friend. But, I kept Friend, and each time we moved, Friend got packed in the boxes and he moved with us. When you came home from the Navy, at 27 years old, Friend was in your room waiting for you. Sitting on the entertainment center of your room at my house. I put him there, so you would know, this is your place, that Friend was keeping it for you. Friend, is old and worn now. He's 29 years old! His fur is matted, he's been sewn up so many times, put in the washing machine over and over,  and his eye is loose on one side. Friend shows the signs of a very well loved toy. When you died, I wanted to put him in the coffin with you, to keep you company, so you wouldn't have to be buried all alone. But, he was in Chicago, and I didn't think to have Francisco bring him with him, until after he was already on the road. And everyone said, "No, you sholuld keep Friend. He'll be a great comfort to you later on." And you know he has been. I see him every day. He sits in the spare bedroom, in the room I keep my clothes in. And every day when I go in to get my clothes, there Friend is. Sitting there, looking at me, reminding me of my "Little Danny" who used to be here to love Friend. Now I guess, he is my Friend. And I will keep him with me forever, and love him for you while your gone. He is one of the daily reminders of the Son I have lost.

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A different time...  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )

Good morning Danny. Today is the day that we fall back in time. The day we set the clocks back one hour. I forgot about that when I got up and so here it is five thirty on a Sunday morning and I decided to go grocery shopping. While I was shopping I remembered about the time chage. To late to go back to bed now. You have a crazy Mother I guess. Tommorow is Halloween. And Dusty just had his Birthday yesterday. I imagine it was hard for him to have a Birthday and be away from home for the first time. Maybe you were there to keep him company. I hope. I don't have anything specific I wanted to write about this time, I was just thinking of you and wanted to write, have a conversation with you. I wish you could talk back, that the conversation would be two way, not one sided. Today, Sunday would be a day I would call you. You, if your were alive would most likely watch a football game today, and talk on the phone to me. Last night before I went to bed I watched the tape your Dad gave to me of Jerry Wayne's party. I heard you singing, "Born to be Wiiiiiiiiiilllllllld" with a bunch of other guys. You all were haveing a great time together. I liked wathching you. I had never heard you sing before. I can tell that you really liked singing. I was thinking of some others things yesterday that you liked. I was making a list in my head of all the things that I remembered that you liked. You liked football, singing, you liked music like Tool and Metallica, you liked chex mix,chicken and rice and tuna casserole, you liked, sweet tea, brewed not instant, you liked beer and jack daniels with coke, you liked to fish, play horse shoes, play poker, you loved to go to concerts, you loved living in Scammon, and wanted to live there the rest of your life, which you did, you liked playing video games, you liked your lava lamp, and baseball cards, and playing the guitar, you liked the Chiefs, and you liked going to the House of Blues here in Chicago, you liked to go to Hooters, and the Red Dog in OKC, you liked swimming, you liked Dr.Pepper and Mountain Dew, you liked to hang out with your friends, and you had a lot of friends because when you made a friend (something you didn't do easily) you kept that friend for life. Oh there's so many things. Things I think of you enjoying. I guess I want to write them down, I'm worried that maybe I might forget something, but when I write it down, I can stop worring because it's here safe in writting, and I can stop going over and over it in my mind, I have it safe here on this page. I wish you were here. I miss talking on the phone on Sunday afternoons. I love you danny, with all my heart. Love, your Mom.

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A silly thing.  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
You know Danny, when I was on my trip with my Sister last week, I remembered something silly and I told my Sister about it. I thought I would write it down. When Mickey and I were walking on the ship I saw a little boy, and he made me think of you when you were a little boy. He was trying to do something, (I don't remember what) but trying to do something to be llike his Dad. And it mad me think of this time when you were pretty little. And you, me and your Dad were riding in the car together. And you were trying to imitate your Dad. Your Dad was riding in the car with the window down, and he had his arm or elbow resting on the window . And there you were on your side of the car trying to imate him by putting your arm on the widow frame. Except your little arm was so short that you almost had your elbow above your head. It had to be uncomfortable, but you were trying to be like your Dad. Doing what he did. I remember your Dad and I looking at each other, and smiling quietly to each other, and sharing the same thoughts, I'm sure. Sharing our love for you, with that look. You know Danny, I don't know why we don't have You, our Son, here any more, but, I know that we both miss you so very, very much. I know we both think of you not just daily, but all through the day. I know I didn't live near you right now, during these last few months of your life, but it made such a difference, just know, that I could go and see you any time. and now I can not. When I was down to visit the girls a couple of weeks ago, I told your Dad recently, "You don't know how much the car I was driving wanted to just drive to his house, because I wanted to see Danny". But, I knew you wouldn't be there, so I didn't go. Anyway, Danny, I just wanted to share that one silly memoriy of you that I have, because meories, is the only thing that I have left of you. I love you, Your Mom. Close

No Man....  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )

Hello Danny. I'm supposed to be working but I can not. My mind is ever on you.Today like yesterday, I saw rainbows. They make me think of you. Today I saw part of a rainbow like yesterday. But then later on I saw a full rainbow. The sky was dark and cloudy. Tears falling from the sky. I spoke with your Dad today. I can not say what we spoke of but it is to much to put in mere words. We talked about getting the report from the coroner. He said it would be hard to read. And I say if Danny had to endure it, the least we can do is be strong enough to read about it. We all wanted to pretend that you and Trey were killed instantly, that you did not suffer....... Oh how I wish that were true. 

When we were making your funeral arrangments Shawn asked if there were anything speical that we wanted on the papers. I asked that "No man is an Island" be on it. Do you remember me talking with you about that? I remember that I had heard that saying several times, and didn't really understand it until one day, I was thinking of you. And it dawned on me what it really meant. Anyway what I thought it meant. And I remember you and I sitting at the kitchen table in the house in OKC on Purdue street. And I tried to explain to you that, even though you,Danny would say to me. Mom it doesn't matter, or I'm not bothering anyone, or something along the lines that what you did was your buisness, and didn't effect anyone else. And I remember talking to you about, even though the choices you make Are your business, the choices and descions you make, weather you like it or not, they effect other people. Because weather you want it or not, there are people who love you, care for you, and no man can live his life as an Island. No man can live a life that doesn't effect other people. Because you Danny are part of a family. part of a group of friends. Part of your ..... whatever. You ar part of other people's life. And the things you do or say, the choices you make, they can hurt other people, they can bring happiness, to others, they effect change in other peoples lives. Weather you want it or not. Weather you intend it or not. It happens because we love you, we need you, we care for you. All those things. Danny you don't know how you are missed, how much you are loved. How much you not being a part of this world has changed so many people and their lives. You have no idea. My Son, I love you. I miss you. I long for you.

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How do I love you?  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
You know Danny, I wonder sometimes if you, or if anyone really knows how much another person really loves you, or how much deepth of feeling another person is campabile of feeling for another. It seems indefinable, the love I feel for you. That I've always felt for you. And I wonder sometimes if you really knew. Did you really and trule know just how much I love you. Did you really know, that the love I had for You was different from the love I had for anyone else in the world. Not better, or more, but different. When you and the girls were little I worried that maybe I loved you more than I loved them. But it wasn't until Lacie was born that I discorved that it wasn't more, but it was different. Because I found that I loved Lacie in a different way than I loved you, or I loved Tammie, or I loved Cassandra. I love all four of my children, but I have a different kind of love for each.
When I stop and think about it, I wonder why we wait until something terrible happens before we can reveal our feelings. But really and truly when I search deep inside, and I ask the questions, "Did Danny know just how much I loved him? Did he know just how special I thought he was?" And after careful consideration, I have to say, that yes, I believe that Danny knew, that I loved him, loved him, admired him, was pround that he was my Son, would do anything, anything at all for him. I would die for him, kill for him. Danny, I love you and living without out you is unspeakable. Sometimes I will forget that you are dead, that sometimes it feels like your just away, like away at the Navy, but then, it will come back, the realiazation, that your never going to be back, that I can never sit with you, call you, talk with you, spend time together. And it feels like someone took a wet cloth, and smacks me in the face. Very distastful, very uncomfortable, nasty, and wrong.
I know I'm just ramblling, but I miss you so much. I want you to come home, to me. I love you. That's all. Close

A trip to remember  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Danny, I went on a trip with my Mom and my  Sister. I just got back home today. I had your picture on my purse, and if i carried a different, smaller purse, I put your pin on my shirt. That way you could go everywhere with us. Many people commented on the pin, and they asked about you. People you don't know, that even I didn't know. And one man that asked about you said, "Is he home now?" And I know that what he meant was were you home from being in the Navy. But, I said, "Yes, he's home now." Because as I told my Mom and my Sister, "He truly is home, he's at the ultimate home, the final home of all.His last home." And Danny it is true. You truly are home now. We all still miss you so much. As I was enjoying my trip with Mom and Mickey, I kept thinking about you. And once I thought, how sad it was, that there were so many things you hadn't got to see or do yet. Because I was looking out over the ship rail, thinking how beautiful the water was, how I wished you were physically there with me. But then I remembered that you had lived four years of your life on a big ship, and had seen many beautiful, and wonderful sites in Japan, things I will never know or see. I rememebr you telling me about Mount Fuji, in Japan, how wonderful that was. You did get to see some of the world before you died. When Mickey and I were walking through an old 17th century castle, Mickey said, "Wouldn't Danny and Dusty just love this place?"  And it's true it was a place you two would have loved to see. It was so cool. Danny even though there is so much, I would have liked to share with you, so much I would have loved to have you see and do, I know you had a happy life. Mickey and I were talking about that on the trip. because I asked her, "Do you think Danny was happy?" And she said, "I do.You know when he came back from the Navy, he seemed so talktive. I remeber his laugh and his smile. When I think of Danny, I think of his laugh. I think of the really great times he and Dusty shared. They were really close. And I remember Danny was happy." And Danny, that's the way I remember you too. I know everything wasn't always perfect, but the hard parts of life just made the good parts, that much sweeter. I love you, Son, and I will never ever forget you. I will never ever stop loving you. Goodnight Danny. Rest well my Son. Close

Summer time  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
I was thinking of summer time when we all lived in Mustang, when we had the pool. Remember how you and Lacie would run and jump on the inflatable rafts we had? It was almost like you were sking. You would run and jump off the edge of the pool and land standing up on the rafts, and the raft would scoot across the water. You two had so much fun in that pool. And I would get really mad at you two because it tore up the rafts. But, you kids didn't care if i hallored all day, you were having to much fun, and you just ignored me. We all fun in that silly pool. Then you, and Lacie, and Mark would take turns jumping in the pool off the diving board trying to see who could make the biggest splash. You were the very best diver of all. You could jump so high and just slice through the water. And we had some kind of silly toy, I don't remeber what it was, but you guys would spend hours throwing it in and then everyone would dive for it. I loved watching you and Lacie out there enjoying the water, laughing and listening to music. I wish we could go back sometimes, but i guess I can in my mind. Goodnight, Danny. I love you. Close

A beautiful fall day  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
You know Danny today is a beautiful fall day. The kind of day I think you would like. It's been kind of cloudy and a little cool. It's damp out, but not really raining. The leaves are starting to turn yellow and orange.
I wanted to write about my dream about you that I had. It was one of the first nights after I came home from Kansas after the funeral. You and I were walking side by side. You were on my left side. And the dream was so clear, the colors so vivid. You had on your black felt scetchers shoes with the white trim, and a pair of light blue baggy silver tab jeans, your favorite kind. And you had the white shirt with the light gray stripes, the one that matched your favorite orange and grey T-shirt. Your hair was cut short like a bur. and your face was clean shaven, because you were smiling. And I'll never forget. You said, "Did you notice I quit smoking?" And I turned around to face you and I said,"I thought I hadn't noticed you smoking lately!" And I went to kiss your face and you turned your cheek to me and I hugged you and kissed your check. That's all, I woke up after that. But, Danny I'm really glad that you quit smoking. I know you kept saying you wanted to. I talked with your Dad today. He is haveing a very difficult time. He said he isn't sleeping, and he seems to have alot of anger. We talked and I told him that I was seeing a counsoler, and that the thing that was helping me the most was going back to church. I've been going to a lot of study groups searching for answers. I told him that maybe something like that would help him too. To go and look for some reassurance that you are safe and happy. That we will see you again. I also told him how much this web site has helped me with my grief. Writing and reading, looking and listening. I come to the site aleast once a day. I don't always write but, some times I just feel like looking at the pictures, or laying my head on the desk and listening to the music. Anyway Danny, I want to tell you how much I love you, and how much I and everyone in your family misses you. And you  know I think we are just now realizing just how very special you were, not just to us, but as your Dad and I discussed, you were something special to alot of people in alot of different ways. Good night, Danny. I love you. Close

One time when we....  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
One time when you, me, Lacie, and Mark all went to Branson I remember how much fun we all had. You were 16 I think. The best thing that you liked was the water slide. It wasn't one of those fancy ones like they have at the water parks now days. Just a single slide that was long and slow. And we all slide down the slide over and over for an hour. When it was time to go I remember you said, "Mom can we stay longer?" You were having such a good time that you didn't want to leave. I hated that I had to say no. But then we left and went to the Shepard on the Hill play and I remember watching your face as you watched the play. I could tell you really liked it. You were quiet during the whole play. And after words, I could tell. You were glad we left the water slide to go see the play. That was a great vacation. We all had a really good time. But those are the two things I remember the most about that trip. You loving the water slide, and your quiet face as you watched the play. If I could I would take you to long slow water slide, and let you slide on it until you could carry yourself up the stairs one more time to slide down again.
Good night Danny. I love you. Mom Close

Thinking Back  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Danny, it's almost bedtime now, but I wanted to say good night to you. I've been cleaning house today, and while I work, my mind is on you. I'm thinking of the times when you lived with me in Pittsburg. how in the mornings we would get up and have breakfast together and watch CNN or Fox news together, Espeically right after you came back from the Navy. you wanted to stay aware of what was going on in the War. You always supported the President, and felt as I do, that we should all stay united behind our President and the troops. Now Dusty is carrying the same load you carried for our family. You are both so brave to give up several years of your life to serve your country. And I am so proud of you and him for that. As is the rest of your family.
You know what else I was remembering? Remember the Japanese game shows we used to watch? how funny they were? And how we laughed together watching those silly shows. Espeisally the ones where the people would fall in the water trying to accomplish a task, how funny the announcers were. They would pretend to be talking for the Japanes people. But, anyway we had fun watching.
It's almost football season. Well, I guess it already is. i just don't have you to tell me about it. Sometimes we would both turn the game on and watch it together, only be on the phone with each other watching the same game. I only liked to watch the game because you liked it.
Lots, of silly little things. I miss you calling me on your luch break from working, telling me, I don't know why i called. I never cared if you had a reason or not. I just liked to hear you call me. And you know when I called you, I never had a reason, except to hear your voice. Sometimes it was an inconvient time, like when you were trying to help Jerry Wayne build his dock. And i said I'd call back later, but you said "No" I can talk and work at the same time. Or when I'd call and you were playing the stupid video game. I'd say put the silly game down and talk to me.
I know you really liked the new game you just got.
Oh Danny, I miss you a lot. I miss our conversations. Your insight and way of looking at things. Good night for now. I'll talk with you again tommorow, and everyday, until I'm with you again. I love you Danny. Close

The Birthday  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Today, the day you were born, it is almost done now. I've thought of you all day. Always your there in my mind, even while I work, a littl corner of my mind stays on you. I have the pin Lacie had made with your picture on it, pinned on my purse. I set you in the car seat next to me. Always so your face is looking forward, like maybe you're there in the seat beside me. At work, I pull up a chair next to mine and put the purse with the pin next to mine, like maybe your sitting next to me there too. I have your picture on my work computer screen saver. The one where you and Wayne are in Mickey's living room. And we I turn on the computer, it looks like I just said your name and you've turned around to see what I wanted. silly things, but it makes me feel close to you. I can talk to you and see your face where ever I look, your near by.
Danny today will always be bittersweet to me. I miss you, more than anyone can know. I don't think I can ever understand this. Theres nothing more to say. Just I love you. I miss you. Always. Love, your Mom. Close

Your Birthday  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Tommorow is your Birthday. You would have been 29 years old. I'm thinking of how eagerly I anticipated your Birth. It was one of the best most exciting days of our lives. The thrill of finally finding out if we had a Son or a Daughter. Oh how we wished for a Son, to go with our two little girls. And God gave us You, the most wonderful Son any Mom could hope for. I remember caring for you, holding you for hours on end. I never wanted to put you down. When you were awake, you cried and wanted to be held and I wanted to hold you and play with you. When you were asleep you liked for me to hold you while you slept. I wonder how I got anything else done?
Tommorrow your Sisters will prepare your favorite foods, in honor of your Birth. I think that the boys from OKC are coming, too. I so wish I could be there with everyone, to share stories, to talk of Our Danny. I will call.
But, most of all how I wish, You could be there. I know in spirit you will be. But oh how I wish you could physically be there. To see your smile. I miss you Danny. Good night.
P.S. I hope where you are, they help to celebrate your day of Birth here on Earth, because it meant alot to us here. Close

Hello I miss you  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Hello Danny, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.
Driving home from work, I spend having conversations with you. I wonder if you can hear me?
Today I was remembering the "Danny's waffle sandwich". Two strawberry eggo waffles, one fried egg, a slice of american cheese, add some ham if you have it, or even a slice of fried bologna will do. I used to make those for you when you were about 15 years old. You got up early every Saturday and Sunday and you Kye, Lonnie, and their brother in law went to the pepsi company to wash trucks all day. You boys worked hard. But you always got right up to go help your friends and to earn some money. I was surprised when you came home from the Navy that you stilled liked the Danny waffle sandwich.
Another thing I was thinking about was when you were little, like before Lacie was born, little. Remember when we, me you and the girls, went to the Fox movie theater in Pittsburg? We saw the Fox and the hound. You loved that movie. You even named your next puppy Copper.
I guess I want to write down all the little things I remember, so I have them here, nice memories, that I can go back to and read, and take comfort in the happy memories.
Danny, I miss you so much it aches. I just can't understand why God took you. It's sometimes unbearable to think that for the rest of my life, all I'll have of you is memories. I know I should be thankful to God for the time we had, but I really do want to know why this happened. There has to be a reason, and I just can't comprehend what that reason might be. God, if there's anyway,......well, I know there's not, so I won't ask. I love you Danny. I love you alot. Close

I'm thinking  / Sue Cabello
you know Danny, I've been thinking. Really worrying. Today I was eating dinner, and I was looking out the window, thinking about you. And I was thinking....I wonder what really, what really and truly happens to someone when they die. I'm trying to be realistic. Not religous, but realistic. I wonder what happens. Because if everyone goes to heaven, then it must be really crowded. I mean just think of the amount of people that have died. In the whole world , for all of time. That's alot of people. Because we've been brought up to think that someday we will see our loved ones again. That I'll get to be with you again some day. And that makes me, when I think of that, to think, well that dieing would be really nice, because I would get to be with you. But of course, I know I have to wait my turn, because I have Lacie to think about. Even though she's going through a time when she's mad at me right now, I kn ow she still needs me, so I would never purposfully leave her. But you know when it's my turn, I will be happy. But, back to thinking about what really and truly happens. What if there's nothing else? What if we don't get to be together? What if the switch is turned off, and ..... that's just it.
But, then I think.  You know someone made this world. Somehow, someway, some one or something started this world. Someone had to be the first peson here. Or the first speck of life. however you believe, Evolution or that God made a man and put him here. So I guess even though it is beyond my comprehension what happens after a person dies, because no one really knows.......... then I guess I take comfort in knowing or hopeing that maybe some day we will get to see you again.
I really do miss you alot. Close

when you were little  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
You know, I was thinking about a time when we all lived in Madison. You were about 11 or 12. We found a beautiful, big, fat, catipillar. And remember we got a jar and put holes in the lid, and we put a little stick and some grass in the jar. And the catipillar ate some of the grass and then we saw the catipillar start to make a cocoon on the stick. Do you remember how wer would look in the jar ever day to watch what the catipillar was doing and how after a while he started to come out of the cocoon? I remember how your face looked when you watching looking at the catipillar. You were so interested. And then one day when we went and looked there was a beautiful black butterfly in the jar. It had little bits of yellow and tiny spots of blue on its wings. It was very beautiful. And remember how we opened the jar and and the butterfly flew away. It was fun to do that together. You were always so curious about nature, the starts and the sky. Just one little sanp shot of memeories that I have tucked away about you. My baby, my boy, my wonderful strong Man. Your were all of those things. Close

I remember  / Sue Cabello (Danny's Mom )
Danny, I remember.............
I remeber the last 6 days I spent with you. I was wainting for you to get off of work, at your Dad's house. You came home, hot , dirty from working, but with a smile on your face when you saw me there waiting. I huggged you and kissed your check. I asked if you wanted to come over to my Mom's and have supper. And you said, "No I promised Craig, (your supervisor at work) that I would help him hay that evening". But, you said, I'll let him know that after tonight I can't help him because you"re here, and after that we can spend time together". And that's the way you always did when I came to visit. You completly put your life on hold, and you spent all your time when you weren't working, just being with me. I told you, you didn't have to do that, that if you had plans with your friends that I wanted you to go ahead. And you always said no, there wan't anything more imprtant. So the next night and and every night after that, except for the last night, I was there wainting for you when you got off of work. And your Dad told me, "Danny, never comes straight home from work, except for when you"re here and he know you're waitning for him".
The first night you and I went to Grandma's and ate sphagetti with Uncle Butch and Grandma, we watched a movie and you fell asleep on the couch. We drove back to your house, about 10 that night.
Several other nights, Lacie was with us. Always Lacie was impatient to leave, get back to Pittsburg, to hang with her friends. But you never complained. When we drove back I loved listening to you and Lacie, just talking, about this friend or that.
So many snap shots of those last few days. On Saturday, I had plans with my Sister, to take my Mom out for the day because her birthday was Aug. 19th,  the day after you died. So glad am I that we celebrated early. But after we came back I called you. "What are you doing?" "Nothing much, watching TV. " You want to come over?" Sure. Ok, I'll come over right now and get you.
And I did. When we got to Columbus, I said tomorrow is Christy, David, and Tyler's birthday dinner, and I want to get something for them. I was thinking about getting them a nice bottle of something and I thought maybe you knew what they liked to drink. So you and I stopped at the liquor store and picked out 3 bottle gift sets with glasses. You helped me pick out what you thought they would like. Then we went over to your Aunt Mickey's house. My brother John and his grandson were there. We sat around visiting with Mike and Gary , John and my Mom. Then Tyler came in, bring little Zepplin with him. Oh and guess what treasures little Zeppy had. Three beautiful feathers for his feather collection AND the greatest prize of all. A DOG'S TOOTH!!! Oh how proud he was of these treasures and we all looked at them OOOOing and AHHHing approriatly. And I said to you Danny. "Danny this reminds me of when you were about 10 or 11 you and I found the little black snake skin and we put it in a little white box. Do you remember, Danny? And what did you say to me? "Mom, I still have it".
I remember saying that night as I was driving you home, I want to cook for you next week, what would you like? And it was a silly question because everyone, even people who aren't in our immediate family knows your favorite things to eat are Mom's chicken and rice, and tuna casserole. So Monday was tuna cassorle, and tuesday was chicken and rice. Lacie was there for both of those, she loves them too. How I loved to cook for you. So Tuesday night, when I drove you home I said now tomorrow, I'm going to dinner with my brother so I'm going to let you have the night off. Your Dad and I had been joking when I was there waiting every night for you, that I was worse than a wife, so on Wed. you would get the night off to go and be with your friends.
And so I did. I went and had dinner in Joplin with my Mom, my Uncle and brother and his family. I did start to feel at little guilty about not having been with you that last night of your life. But later, after everything happened, I asked your Dad. What did Danny do that last night? He said well, he came straight home from work, which he never does, unless you're here. Maybe he was checking to see if you were here waiting for him or not. But, then he left and went to his friends house and at about 10 here he came home. He was hungry so he fixed a bowl of stew, and he sat in his green chair, and his dad and him watched, as they often did the monolog of the Jay Leno show. Then he feel asleep in his chair. His Dad told me, I woke him up at about 1 , because they were both sleeping, and said time to go to bed. Which Danny did.
And the next morning as you were leaving the house, walking with your heavy foot steps, you stopped at the door, which you never did because you were always in a hurry, didn't want to keep your ride waiting. But, you stopped and said, "Have a nice day" to your Dad. This was something your Dad always said to YOU when you were leaving the house, but for some reason today he didn't say it. So you stopped, looked at your Dad, and said "Have a nice day".
The little things we remember. I don't remember the last words you and I spoke or what our topic of conversation was for the night as we drove along when I took you home each evening. But many times, we didn't talk, and the silence was always just as comfortable as the conversations.
I do remember that on Sunday you and I went to Joplin, to see War of the worlds. We both liked the movie, and as we were driving home it was raining. The sky was making a good imitation of the sky's we saw in the movie. And you and I talked about the sky, the dark clouds, the graphics in the movie, how real they seemed. You always were interested in the weather, storms, and the sky in general. You believed that you had seen UFO's. Those sorts of things were of interest to you.
Danny, I miss you. I know we will never have times like the ones I've described, but I give thanks to God that I had those 6 days with you. I love you Son. Close